today could be about being so tired of cooking food for my family I can not eat, or just exhausted of being sick, or wondering what I am going to start telling my three year old when he really realizes him mom does not eat anything but chicken, or my decision to make it until the youngest turns 20, or my drive to finally reach out to the doctors in california that supposedly treat blastocystis.
this is the roller coaster of a typical day. I can turn on a dime with my mood from ok with life because I have my husband and my kids to wanting to end it all just so I did not have to buy another chicken breast from BJ's. it is exhausting being chronically ill and chronically fatigued.
my reality is no one really knows how hard my days are, that i binge on chocolate chip cookies because I am so tired of living with a parasite that has destroyed my life, that I cry when my three year old has a normal bowel and I cry even harder when he does not.
this is what today was about.
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