I know when I not feeling well and my disease is acting up, if that is what I am going to call it today, because I wake up early. I am almost jolted out of bed, well off the sofa. I know I was doing so much better last week because I not only slept through the night but slept in our bed instead of the sofa.
Yes I am a sofa sleeper. It started after the birth of our second and I did not want to wake everyone up in the middle of the night. Well before that there was the fear of climbing the stairs recovering from a c-section. Then the mid night feedings. Then the becoming sick all over again with c.diff.
This morning however feels more like a blasto thing. My hot spot on my lower right side is really a big knot. I was jolted awake by this weird dream. Don't even think I remember it all that clearly. And then the stupid shakes are kinda here.
I wish I had never ever touched that stupid entemenns raspberry danish on Sunday. I ruined everything. I was tolerating culturelle and align and as most of you suffering with blasto know probiotics set you off. But the dificid did something and changed my gut ecology enough that I was tolerating them and think I was starting to overcome the c.diff. Now I am scared to take one. I need the blasto back under control.
What a drag. I wonder if there is a high suicide rate with long time sufferers. Really makes quality living so very very hard.
And I was up late the night before too because I felt bad and could not fall asleep. and now up early today. I will lie back down and maybe turn the tv on and see if re-runs of cheers are still on.
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