well it looks like it has been ages since I typed anything. that is a good thing because the reason for the posts on this blog is middle of the night episodes. i'm definitely having one tonight. they are such a drag. the feelings that creep through my body like i should just be curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor. the stomach pain and nausea are just too much. and i do this too myself. i was home all day today since it is a sunday, and i binged. my current binge since christmas is pizzelle cookies. i ate almost an entire sleeve of the today. i could not stop myself and this is also a real problem. i gain weight and i end up with middle of the night episodes. this one is still going on. my stomach and abdomen hurt, i have intestinal cramping and of course d. but the waves of toxic feeling that float through my body are what really cause the ill health